June 1/07 I Feel Normal!

I don’t know how to explain this, and i don’t want to brag when others are having a hard time, but i just cant help it, i feel so thankful. I don\’t know what’s going on, but all i know is i feel NORMAL. To someone that doesn’t have hd, you may or may not know what i mean. But, i have had hd for 5 years now, and i have had good days and bad days, but never ever ever has there been a day where i could just say i actually feel completly NORMAL. Yesterday and today are the first two days in five years that i can say that. I don’t know the reason, and i don\’t care why. Yesterday and today i just did completely NORMAL things, nothing spectacular, but just normal things around my house that i just don’t do any more. Like i did dishes, cleaned the cat littler, cleaned the bathroom, hung a picture on the wall, made some hard boiled eggs because I, not someone else, but i decided to make potato salad, i got all the groceries to do it all too, and i cleaned up my balcony a bit, and dan took me to wallyworld cus i wanted to buy some plants to make a nice herb garden on our balcony, and i did some sewing, and watched tv, and just did some very very NORMAL things, that we all take for granted, until normal just isnt normal any more, and i am just in tears cus you have no idea what it feels like to feel normal, when you have forgotten what normal feels like. I don’t know how long this will last, but it doesnt matter. I am going to be 50 in a few weeks, and i have decided i want to do something really big, something really memorable, not on my birthday, but sometime during my 50th year, i am going to do something that will mean a lot to me, i have an idea what it is i’m planning, and i think it will be really nice. For now, my short term goal is to eat healthy and exercise a bit more too, so maybe i can look good for 50 too, and i will be happy.